When I first started my journey with this business, the business of photographing mommas, babies, and children, I had no real knowledge of the places it would take me.
While I don't consider myself an expert or a birth worker, I do work with momma's who labor and deliver babies when I photograph births. I do talk to mommas who struggle during the first few days of motherhood at newborn sessions, and answer questions based on my personal experience. When momma's ask questions during milestone sessions about, "is this normal?", " did your children do this?". I answer honestly from my memory bank of those times with my little ones.
So in a sense I do see my work as part photography and part ministry to mommas.
Recently I started Little Mother's Gifts of Grace in an effort to give back to our community, especially the members of our community who's children were suffering. I can't take away that pain, I can't take away the illness, but I can provide some moments of innocence to a life that has known more pain and sadness than is right for a baby.
This week I was asked to preform a service I hadn't yet done. I was asked to be with a family during a trying time, and photograph this for them. I will be honest, I entered this task with serious trepidation, fear, and sadness. After conferring with my amazing group on Facebook for support and advice, I went in and did my job. Not with out tears and not with out grief.
As I sit here on my couch, surrounded by photographs of my family, my healthy children, and the assorted clutter that comes from a family of five. I realize I am so blessed, so so blessed. I realize that this journey I am on is just starting, and I have a powerful tool at my disposal. My camera will take me places I never planned to go, it will take me places I don't want to go. Through my lens I will see things, capture memories, and even if they aren't always happy moments they will be forever available to those who cherish them.
I don't have any images to share with this blog post. It really is just a forum for me to tell readers to pay heed to Gods' plan, follow his gentle nudges. It may not always be pleasant, or easy, but it will be oh so rewarding.